the person that you’re supposed to be excited to see is the one that truly floats your goat and nearly makes you physically ill. We should be tied by a bound like no other, but over the course of the last…hmmm , lets say 5 years, the sound of her voice, her being close makes me ill. Annoys me. I feel as though I can never be my true me around this person. Alaways have to watch my grammar, tenses, particles of speech, etc. Come on, can a sister breathe? Can i be mewithout the constant critiscsm? This is going to be a long visit, one that I am not looking forward to at all. Just how many excuses can I come up with in order to maintain my sanity and emotional well being? I have to limit my visits with the person with who i’m supposed to have this bound with. I just need to do me and continue this emotional journey that I am on.
At this point in my life, i need to do me and just me and things that meet me happy.
